Just over a month ago, we got sent the songs for Youth Councils, and one of the songs really struck me.
Now, I must admit, at first I really liked it because it’s a new Hillsong song and it’s sung by Brooke Fraser (or now Brooke Ligertwood), and she has been one of my favourite musicians for as long as I can remember. But the more I listened to it, the more I loved it for the words (at this point I recommend going and listening to the song before you continue and hopefully it will make my ramblings seem a little more coherent).
Today, on the walk to work, while listening to the song, I felt a tear come to my eye. Granted, it could have been because of the cold wind, or the fact I have a stubborn cold that doesn’t want to go away, but I’m pretty sure it was because of the emotion of the song.
The thing that really resonates with me in this song is the lines of the bridge:
“I am chosen, not forsaken, I am who you say I am.”
And the reason is for a long time, I have struggled with not feeling good enough for any calling I’ve felt by God on my life.
But there’s one thing that seems to be really following me around lately - it's that God knows us, what we’ve been through, who we are, and even with this, he still calls us, and no matter what we may say about ourselves, he calls us as we are.
If he’s calling you, he thinks you are ready. It’s like when God speaks to Moses from the burning bush and says, “So now, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt.” (Exodus 3:10), and Moses replies, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:11). God doesn’t say to Moses 'no you’re right, maybe go away for a bit and then I’ll come back to you later,' he says 'I will be with you.'
But what made Moses good for the job God had for him was that, not only was he an Israelite, but he had grown up in the house of the Pharaoh. It was his experiences that made him the man for the job.
And I think that’s why 'Who You Say I Am' has stuck out to me so much and strikes such emotion in me; because often I feel just like Moses did, asking “who am I that I should do this job?” Or even, as the opening words of the song say, “who am I that the highest king would welcome me?” Because often I feel as though I’m not the right person for what he calls me to, but as the song says, “I am chosen, not forsaken, I am who you say I am.”