Today, I was sitting on the bus on the way home, constantly looking at my phone only to see the minutes go by slower and slower... and slower. If you know me, you’ll know that I’m impatient. I promise I’ve gotten a lot better over the years, but I used to be pretty bad.
I remember, it was a couple days before Christmas one year, my family left me at home to go and grab some last minute gifts, and I couldn’t stand waiting any longer. Looking at those wrapped gifts was eating me up inside. I just HAD to peek.
'No one was home. What they didn’t know couldn’t hurt them, right?' and 'You’ve waited for so long Denae. You deserve a little peek!' were some of the thoughts circling my head.
So I rushed to the cupboards and grabbed the wrapping papers identical to the ones wrapped around my presents, tape and scissors, and sat myself down in front of my gifts under the tree.
I ended up opening ALL my gifts... plus some of my sisters just to make sure I had the better presents! I then got ready to start re-wrapping my presents and realised that I can't actually wrap gifts at all, even if my life depended on it. I couldn’t back out now, though, so a couple of paper cuts later, I finished wrapping my presents to the best of my abilities aaand... let's just say I don’t get to see my presents anymore until Christmas morning.
Impatience is something that can consume us entirely. It also causes us to not think about the consequences at times when we get so desperate for something. I didn't think about what was going to happen after opening the gifts early, and I was left with a pretty uneventful Christmas because I didn’t feel the same joy as the rest of my family when it came to gift opening time. It can get to a point where you just can't bear it any longer.
Did you know the Bible says that even God is impatient? Not in the same way we feel impatient, but instead God has an 'everlasting impatience' for our suffering.
Judges 10:16 says, "Then they got rid of the foreign gods among them and served the LORD. And he could bear Israel's misery no longer." He can’t bear to see his children suffering and dealing with sin. He is so desperate and anxious to take our problems away from us.
In one of my favourite songs, the chorus talks about the 'Reckless Love' of God and says:
"The reckless love of God.
Oh it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine.
I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away."
Isnt it absolutely incredible - the fact that our Father is so impatient over our distress that He doesnt think about the consequences when it comes to us. He’s willing to leave the ninety-nine sheep to find us, to chase us down until we’re found. Even in times where we aren’t deserving of his love, but that unworthiness doesn’t stop Him, and it never will.
Song to listen to: “Reckless Love” - Cory Asbury.