I’ve been listening to a lot of vocally inspiring music recently, music that makes me want to become a better singer and a better musician.
I’ve got three choral projects on the go so am listening to recordings of the world’s best choral singers to help me learn my parts. I’ve just been to Adele (WOW!!) and was blown away by how she stood for two and a half hours singing at full belt, without a single note wrong or sounding like her voice was getting tired. And I've also just heard the International Staff Songsters from London, who sang such beautiful music with passion and precision. On top of that, a number of my friends have gone or are going overseas to study, tour and perform at some of the world’s best music schools and venues, and it’s all just so dang exciting and makes me want to SING!
It’s so easy for me to get swept back into my 'old life' of being a performer, wanting to attain ‘the’ incredible voice. I’ll admit it, with all the exciting music making going on around me recently, I’ve definitely been swept up by it - I need to book in lessons with my singing teacher, I must learn to sing that piece, I need to perfect this technique, I must practice that song…
Now there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve our skills and strive for excellence, absolutely not! After all, God asks us to bring our best before Him. But when I sing for God in worship, more than anything else, He longs for my heart.
And my problem is that this performer life can sweep me right back into a headspace that's all about me, whether it takes the form of pride or extreme self-criticism, and that's definitely not the offering of worship that God asks for.
I need to remind myself that the heart is what it’s all about. I need to remind myself, "Slow down, Rebecca, with your ambition. Humble yourself. Sing because of your love for God, and don't worry about anything else."
Whether it's singing, playing an instrument, or doing any number of great things for God, it's so important to check in on where our heart lies. Maybe like me, there’s a bit of humility to be learned… or perhaps it's surrender of your worries, or an unchecked sin...
But the question should be asked – do I truly offer God a worshipping heart, or is my mind side-tracked by other things?
I still remember when I grew up my father was a hard working man, he made sure that there was food on the table all the time, he wanted us to attend at school everyday and was also committed to church program. He always worked hard to pay our pills. His heart was to see us happy.
One time he asked me what I wanted to be in the future. And when I told him he pushed me, he encouraged me, he showed me how to reach my goal and I understand that in his heart he wanted the best for me and for our family. Every time I made a mistake he disciplined me and he taught me the right things. He always encouraged me especially when I’m was not feeling well or discouraged or disappointed.
The story in Luke 15:11-32 reveals to us exactly what a “FATHER’S HEART” looks like, from the day that the son made his own decision to leave his home, the place where he belongs where he had all the things he needed. The father gave him a bag and he put his heart in the bottom of the bag and the money and treasure on the top. The secret of the story is that the son was carrying around the father’s heart everywhere he went. The father’s heart followed him everyday. The father stood at the door and waiting for his son to come back home every single day. He did not get tired, he did not give up. All he did he was wait, and when he saw the son come home he ran into him and he hugged him, welcoming him, comforting him and he wanted to celebrate with him. The father wanted the son to know his love for him never ends.
If you read this, I don't know what your situation is right now. Maybe your father has passed away and it still hurts you or maybe you have grown up without a father but let me remind you this “GOD” our father, he sees us and knew us before we were born (Jeremiah 1:4-5) and he had a plan for us (Jeremiah 29:11) “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” He knows the desire of your heart.
He is a good good father. His goodness never changes, never fails and never ends. His goodness knows no limits or boundaries and flows freely from his heart to all. Even those who are unaware of his goodness toward them reap the benefit of His unfailing love and kindness. He doesn’t want us to perish or fall. His provision of the fullness of His goodness is freely given to all who will receive it. His goodness gives and His goodness forgives. Every part of his goodness is presented in the gift Jesus gave at Calvary. Every need of mankind and every good desire is fulfilled in God’s goodness given through the price that was paid.
If you haven’t met Him I challenge you, to open up your heart and let Him come in and be your Father and you will be his sons and daughters. All he needs is our heart (Proverbs 23:26).